The Trashy PD Has To Survive as an Idol

at others say.”

 

It was a remark that deserved to be questioned like, ‘What kind of bullshit is he talking about?’ and ‘Did he eat something wrong?’

 

Even so, everyone didn’t disregard it easily because of what I’d done so far.

 

I’d shake anyone’s hand to keep us rising.

 

Everyone might be nervous, but still.

 

Kim Sunghyun asked carefully.

 

“Why did you say that?”

 

“…”

 

“Well, aren’t you saying that because you have something on your mind?”

 

It was a completely different attitude from when I was first told to leave so as to not spoil the atmosphere.
I looked around at the members slowly.

 

“I don’t choose the means and methods.”

 

They were the ones who I thought were completely hopeless.
But what about now? They became quite valuable.
All I needed to do was make the star quality.

 

“I’ll do everything I can to lift us up.”

 

“…”

 

“At that time, you might lose your affection for me….
I am fine with that, so you have to believe me.”

 

I spoke frankly.
If I didn’t get the trust of the members right now, all the premises of the plans I’d thought of would collapse.
I waited calmly for the result.

 

Naturally, I anticipated a situation where they would dismiss it as a joke, asking what I was talking about.

 

Then, Jung Dajoon suddenly jumped up and took red ginseng juice out of Sung Jiwon’s suitcase and ate it.

 

“…What’s wrong?”

 

“I suddenly ran out of energy… Hoyoon hyung always acts like a crazy person, it’s hard to deal with.
I just won’t think about it.”

 

“Hey, me too.
Me too.”

 

Kang Yichae chuckled.
As I raised an eyebrow, Sung Jiwon spoke carefully.

 

“Hoyoon-ah, I don’t know about the others, but I have trusted you for a long time.
You have a bad personality, I already knew that….”

 

“That’s right, I’ve already lost quite a bit of affection for hyung.
Especially at the beginning when you talked about parents, I wondered if a person like this really existed.”

 

“To be honest… Seo Hoyoon’s personality is really nasty.”

 

…These guys?

 

Kang Yichae also added in the words that followed.

 

“Let’s see how it goes.
Honestly, it’s fun being with hyung.
Sometimes you go in a completely unexpected direction.”

 

Until the end, Kang Yichae never said that he believed me.
But this was enough.
The rest was something that we could fill in slowly.
Kang Yichae grinned.

 

“Let’s do it.
Let’s trust Hoyoon hyung,  push out the candidate, and win first place.”

 

It was decided.

 

 

* * *

 

Time flew fast, and it was already time for planning.

 

Even when the candidate was confirmed, the president smiled broadly and said, ‘Be satisfied with second place’.
Even the gentle manager clenched his teeth as if he were angry at the thoughtless words, but I was calm.

 

Why?

 

“Hey! You are in the wrong location right now!”

 

“Ah, hyung, the difference is like centimeters!”

 

“Get it right again!”

 

Because Sung Jiwon’s switch was turned on again.

 

It was so damn hard to follow Sung Jiwon, so I couldn’t even think of the president or Yoohyuk’s angry words.

 

When I collapsed in the corner, Kang Yichae slumped down.

 

“I think Jiwon hyung is crazy.”

 

“Yeah, he’s been possessed.
I think a trainee who died in the practice room is possessing him.”

 

“He hasn’t been like that for the past year… It’s true that he’s famous as a real practice maniac.”

 

At this time, everyone secretly gathered and talked behind Sung Jiwon’s back.
Even Kim Sunghyun participated.

 

“Sung Jiwon was famous?”

 

“Oh, you didn’t know? Hyung was originally a big rookie and he was in the debut group, so he was a bit popular.
Most of the fans we had were because of Jiwon hyung.”

 

“Is that where Today is?”

 

“Yeah.
An agency called D.go.”

 

Kim Sunghyun answered quietly.

 

“They must have been very rude.
He was unlucky to fall out of the debut group there.”

 

“Aha.”

 

“He practiced recklessly like a dead person, but after hyung came in, his eyes turned upside down.
Hyung, you fanned a house on fire, no, you poured a can of oil on it.”

 

Kang Yichae said and emptied a bottle of water.

 

Does Sung Jiwon hyung hate Today’s Yoohyuk for that reason?

 

No, why did he fall out in the first place?

 

As people often said, Sung Jiwon was the one with the best skills and good balance in The Dawn.

 

“It’s good that I got kicked out.”

 

Sung Jiwon’s reply surprised Kang Yichae.
Maybe he had heard all of our talks.
He trudged out and fanned himself.

 

“I didn’t want to debut with Today’s members either.”

 

“Even though you might win first place? Doesn’t your stomach churn?”

 

“I’d rather get a stomach ache here than choke to death there.”

 

Sung Jiwon cut him off without answering the question.
It seemed something really had happened, so I had to prod around and ask him later.

 

“Jiwon hyung!”

 

“H-Huh?”

 

I thought Jung Dajoon had passed out, but he jumped up and asked.

 

“Are you saying loyalty is more important than popularity?”

 

“Hn? Is that what you’re saying?”

 

“Make sure to include those words in your autobiography later.”

 

“Do idols usually write autobiographies?”

 

Sung Jiwon was flustered and got caught up in Jung Dajoon’s nonsense.

 

In the meantime, my cell phone rang.
When I checked it, Kang Yichae raised his head.

 

“Hyung, is it the composer?”

 

“No, it’s not.”

 

“That’s too bad.”

 

Kang Yichae closed his mouth.
He was strange these days.
He watched like a distant person without much interest in anything, but when  Lim Hyunsoo was mentioned, he turned over.

 

“You, don’t tell me…”

 

“Hn?”

 

“…Um, no.”

 

Don’t tell me… You can’t possibly like Lim Hyunsoo, right?

 

When I glanced at him, Kang Yichae laughed.

 

“Hyung, what nasty thoughts are you thinking?”

 

“Ah, I am sorry.”

 

“I didn’t see it like that, but you’re really narrow-minded…”

 

“I’m sorry.” 

 

Kang Yichae gave a long speech, saying, ‘The composer is from a different realm, and my feeling is closer to religious belief’.
I roughly closed my ears and checked the text. 

 

[Joo Woosung: Hey]

 

It was Joo Woosung.

 

[Joo Woosung: I checked what you said last time.
I know what the first mission is tooㅋㅋ]

 

[Joo Woosung: Are you curious? Yeah? , I’ll let you know if you say  thank you, Joo Woosung sunbae-nim is the best, I respect you.]

 

“Oh.”

 

I carefully took a picture of the text. 

 

[Me: ㅊㄱ]

 

The best.

 

[Me: ㅈㄱ]

 

Respect.

 

[Me: ㄱㅅ]

 

Thanks.

 

[Joo Woosung: Really^^]

 

[Joo Woosung: Sometimes I wonder, am I a pushover for being nice to you even if you treat me like this? ^^]

 

You’re not a pushover, Mr.
Pushover.

 

Joo Woosung grumbled but he gave me the information.
I slowly checked the mission written in detail there.

 

Lately, I got a lot of help from Joo Woosung.

 

[Joo Woosung: And I also checked the producer.]

 

[Me: Who is it?]

 

[Joo Woosung: D.go earnestly intervened, and a lot of producers have been replaced… The final producer seems to be this person.]

 

I knew most of the producers of the broadcasting station.
I guessed with the names passing through my head.
The person in charge of such a contest program wouldn’t be far from my expectation.

 

My heart dropped as I looked at the casual text message.

 

[Joo Woosung: Producer Kim Heeyoung] 

 

“…”

 

“Hyung?”

 

I was at loss for words for a moment.
Kang Yichae, who was still talking about Lim Hyunsoo’s great points next to me, tilted his head.

 

“Hyung, what’s wrong?”

 

“Ha…”

 

I pressed my eyes hard.
And lay on the floor.

 

“Yichae-ya.”

 

“…What is it?”

 

“Life is not easy.”

 

Kim Heeyoung, cool, smart, and famous for being the ‘crazy bitch in this area’ on cable TV.

 

“It’s not easy…”

 

My ex-girlfriend.